Saturday, January 30, 2010
♥ studying where?
today went to suntec to listen to the talk of ntu.. there were many np students going to the talk. can see lots of familiar faces.. haha.. actually i dunno what i wan 2 be in the future. should i go for uol, local uni or rmit? if local uni sch or uol sch which should i choose from. sometime many choices at one time juz make me confused only. i dunno which choice is the correct and best choice for me. i prefer to choose uol but some of my frenz say that can give it a try for local uni as it has no harm from apply.. but i juz don feel like listening. like shutting down my brain. but juz got 1 person say sometimes i'm quite stubborn.
sometime she also cannot stand my stubborn. once there is a problem, i don wan 2 face it. i rather run away than facing it. she say if there is 1 gd chance why muz chase it away. still say my msn nick, 这一秒不失望，下一秒就会有希望!if i did not try then sure no希望. after hearing this, i agree la. if nvr try i dunno. but i c my gpa, it really give me no confident to apply. even if i get in, in a new environment i muz readopt a new environment. hate this like of adopting a new environment. i also might not have the determination and courage to study.
last wk i actually quite moody. keep thinking of 1 qn. am i a very selfish person? always did not think of other? one of them say that i did not think of my parent, they are old le, still go n study. she say i should take part time or if not go work first then after that go and study as i am more financially stable. but i personally felt that if i don study now, when i old liao i really cannot concentrate to study. i noe if get a cpa cert, i still have to continue to take training every yr. she say that make me dunnno how to reply her. i agree that i'm bad, selfish, don think of other feeling. hate myself being like that. sometimes i really don like myself. i always give other lots of misconception of me. but i already get use to it le. if u think wat i'm then that maybe is the way bah. i don feel to explain to u further more. maybe like that u think that i am a person who is hard to communicate bah.. i think if i study part time i think more worst bah. no mood to study even.
tis few day trying to go out everyday, make myself busy and tired so that no need to think so much abt what she say. i think i have come back to my previous self. setting a high barrier with other people, don wan 2 talk much and prefer to be alone at nite. sometime at nite make me think of "her", got a lots of thing wish to tell u but now like impossible. i dunno who can i turn to, whom can i trust and rely upon.
today, after the talk, go to a restaurant to eat but who noe? after eating, overheard a manager and 1 staff conversation, mentioning that we have been there for a long time and we have eat finish long time ago.. after listening to this, qq was quite annoyed. she mention that the person was rude.. haha.. actually the person was juz beside her and she sy it loudly.. it make me a bit pai seh at that moment. but i agree that the person is a bit rude as how 2 say we are still their customer and the restaurant is not very peak at that time. time passes very fast. we juz go for the talk, eat and some shopping and we realised that half of the day had gone. at that point we felt a bit tired. we did not notice that it was 6 plus as we thought it was only 4 plus.
after shopping still have to rush for another round, going bbq chalet which was organise by the co. it was fun la. got many ppl going. have lots of fun and laughter there. 1 wk did not see them le. so happy! we thought of buying a cake for the feb birthday gal as we did not bring anything there. but who noe after we buy, they told us that actually they also bought it. end up got 2 cakes.. haha.. then after the bbq, we have a birthday celebration. we got 4 versions of birthday song, different languages.. after that we have a toast. shouting yum sang loudly.. the most funny part is that the opposite side also say that loudly back to us! haha.. after all these is the game time. a bit sad is that i did not play as i need to go back. but is ok i think still got lots of opportunities after that. Thanks for the invitation!
hope that next wk i noe what i really wants...
sometime she also cannot stand my stubborn. once there is a problem, i don wan 2 face it. i rather run away than facing it. she say if there is 1 gd chance why muz chase it away. still say my msn nick, 这一秒不失望，下一秒就会有希望!if i did not try then sure no希望. after hearing this, i agree la. if nvr try i dunno. but i c my gpa, it really give me no confident to apply. even if i get in, in a new environment i muz readopt a new environment. hate this like of adopting a new environment. i also might not have the determination and courage to study.
last wk i actually quite moody. keep thinking of 1 qn. am i a very selfish person? always did not think of other? one of them say that i did not think of my parent, they are old le, still go n study. she say i should take part time or if not go work first then after that go and study as i am more financially stable. but i personally felt that if i don study now, when i old liao i really cannot concentrate to study. i noe if get a cpa cert, i still have to continue to take training every yr. she say that make me dunnno how to reply her. i agree that i'm bad, selfish, don think of other feeling. hate myself being like that. sometimes i really don like myself. i always give other lots of misconception of me. but i already get use to it le. if u think wat i'm then that maybe is the way bah. i don feel to explain to u further more. maybe like that u think that i am a person who is hard to communicate bah.. i think if i study part time i think more worst bah. no mood to study even.
tis few day trying to go out everyday, make myself busy and tired so that no need to think so much abt what she say. i think i have come back to my previous self. setting a high barrier with other people, don wan 2 talk much and prefer to be alone at nite. sometime at nite make me think of "her", got a lots of thing wish to tell u but now like impossible. i dunno who can i turn to, whom can i trust and rely upon.
today, after the talk, go to a restaurant to eat but who noe? after eating, overheard a manager and 1 staff conversation, mentioning that we have been there for a long time and we have eat finish long time ago.. after listening to this, qq was quite annoyed. she mention that the person was rude.. haha.. actually the person was juz beside her and she sy it loudly.. it make me a bit pai seh at that moment. but i agree that the person is a bit rude as how 2 say we are still their customer and the restaurant is not very peak at that time. time passes very fast. we juz go for the talk, eat and some shopping and we realised that half of the day had gone. at that point we felt a bit tired. we did not notice that it was 6 plus as we thought it was only 4 plus.
after shopping still have to rush for another round, going bbq chalet which was organise by the co. it was fun la. got many ppl going. have lots of fun and laughter there. 1 wk did not see them le. so happy! we thought of buying a cake for the feb birthday gal as we did not bring anything there. but who noe after we buy, they told us that actually they also bought it. end up got 2 cakes.. haha.. then after the bbq, we have a birthday celebration. we got 4 versions of birthday song, different languages.. after that we have a toast. shouting yum sang loudly.. the most funny part is that the opposite side also say that loudly back to us! haha.. after all these is the game time. a bit sad is that i did not play as i need to go back. but is ok i think still got lots of opportunities after that. Thanks for the invitation!
hope that next wk i noe what i really wants...
7:41 AM
Name: Tan Siew Geok 秀玉
